It's been awhile since my last journal update, a lot has happened, a lot has changed, myself in particular. There was a breaking point most recently where I felt as if I was standing on the edge of a eternally swinging pendulum. Where life, love, hope, and dreams were on the one side, and chaos, entropy, self loathing, and doubts lay on the other. Eventually however, I came to my senses and decided once again to fall on the brighter side and try to pick up and once again push ever onward. I sometimes wonder if I chose correctly to go back to MY home in March, only to leave once again in June. I kept struggling with thoughts that maybe all I d